neurotic paradoxes

Murderman

Why am I smiling? Find out soon!

New (idiot) pics courtesy of my laptop. Finally got it working after uninstalling the OEM Vista and installing XP. Vista fucking sucks. It needs obscenely high system specs to be able to do what it (purportedly) does.

Anyways, a lot of things have happened lately, and I don't want to JINX anything by talking about it to anyone. All I can say is, I won't say anything. Ha ha ha.

On to other things.

I took some pics of my sculptures and my favorite piece is this:

It's an orc, obviously. It's incredibly hard to take a decent photo with an imbedded webcam, so bear with it.I really love how it turned out, especially the veins on its neck. From another angle:

With his helmet:

Im planning to paint it but I'm still deciding whether I'm going to leave it as is or make a full figure, complete with armor.

Geeky, I know.

Another full figure I was working on. That is, until I got bored. It started out as a bust and I just kept adding to it.

The helmet comes off. :D

He's one ugly mofo!

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Im going back to hospital duty on Tuesday. Argh! It seems my vacation was too damned short! It's all crying babies for me this time. See you soon, I'll update as soon as can.

WednesdayAddams

MBERso i decided to continue posting blogs here whenever i have free time..

and here i am again! typing nonsense things!

i thought i will end up leaving my work again after 6 months

coz i'm really bored with the things we're doing.

just the same things over and over and over and over again everyday.

but this job is the reason why i have these things i love, so i'm having a second thought of leaving VXI

this is my 3rd call center company..

and the people are still the same..

this work suck! hehe

change topic.

i didn't set this in private.. i don't know.. i just don't feel like it who knows, one day i die and someone wants to know me better...

just search my name through the net and in this blog, that person will find my cyberspace.

 i am at peace now. unlike the past years where i was always sad and hated some people.

maybe i changed or matured in a way.

this year has a good memory to me. a lot of good than bad memory.

me and my boyfriend usually go to bulacan during our restdays, visit his family especially his father whose sick.

we go to the market to buy veggies and eggs we do the grocery.

we jog together. we watch movies together. like what we did before when we we're living in the same house.

it was fun. it was unforgettable.

it was a disaster as well.

i have a friend who likes me and the hell i don't feel comfortable now with him coz i really don't like him.

i just want him to be my friend and that's it.

i just hope he didn't tell me he's falling for me coz i really didn't want it to hear but it happened.

i'm getting sick of this.

but i don't really mind it. it will just make me worried.

before the year ends, i really don't know what to do or what to wish coz i think my wishes needs a lot of effort to get.

i wish i was born rich.

so that i can study all the courses i want.

so that i can eat whatever i want.

so that i can buy my favorite things.

so that i can go to the places i love.

these past few weeks.. or months i think.. i wasn't able to take pictures of me like what i always do before.. i really missed it...

dull_soul

Night Swimming
Beach walking
Always silent
Never talking
Then you call my name
And I know inside I love you

Sail away
I miss you more
Until you see the shore
There I will be waiting
Anticipating

Each moment is new
And breeds a moment
Each moment is cool
And breeds a moment

I wouldn't wanna be
Anywhere else but... here
I wouldn't wanna change
Anything at all
(Anything oh I...)

I wouldn't wanna take
Everything out on... you
Though I know I do
(Although I know I do)
Everytime I fall

Day dreaming
Chain smoking
Always laughin
Always jokin
I remain the same
Did I tell you that I love you

Brush your teeth
And pour a cup of black coffee out
I love to watch you do that every day
The little things that you do

Each moment is new
And breeds a moment
Each moment is cool
And breeds a moment

I wouldn't wanna be
Anywhere else but... here
I wouldn't wanna change
Anything at all
(Anything oh I...)

I wouldn't wanna take
Everything out on... you
Though I know I do
(Although I know I do)
Everytime I fall

Hmmmmmm
Hmmmmmm
Each moment is cool
And breeds a moment

I wouldn't wanna be
Anywhere else but... here
I wouldn't wanna change
Anything at all
(Anything oh I...)

I wouldn't wanna take
Everything out on... you
Though I know I do
(Although I know I do)
Everytime I fall
(Everytime I fall)
(Everytime I fall)

I wouldn't wanna be
Anywhere else but... here
(Anywhere but here)
I wouldn't wanna change
(I wouldn't wanna change)
Anything at all
(Anything oh I...)

I wouldn't wanna take
Everything out on... you
Though I know I do
(Although I know I do)
Everytime I fall

Nice women
Beach walking
Always silent
Never talking
Then you call my name
And I know inside I love you

Sail away
I miss you more
Until you see the shore
There I will be waiting
Anticipating

tohru

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Murderman

...And I listen for the whisper

Of your sweet insanity

While I formulate denials

Of your effect on me...

You're a stranger

So what do I care?

You vanished today

Not the first time for you

All the lies...

What am I to do with all this...

...Silence?

 "A Stranger"